In Memory of Megan... 7 months since you have been gone #loveeternal #bestfriend #canadian #soulmate - Video

Megan... It has been 7 months since you left our lives/left my life...

I won't lie, I do get angry... I get angry that God decided to take you from us and from me
I get angry that you are not here with me anymore to hug or kiss and to hear your voice
I get angry you are not here to go out at nights and do fun stuff together along with random day trips
I get angry that the doctors didn't do more to keep you alive and here with us and with me
I get angry that your family didn't take you to University Hospital in St. John's to get you the help you needed to keep you here with us and with me
I get angry at your ex husband for driving you and your health to the point you weren't able to recover and come be here with me

But I forgive you and the other parts of forgiveness will take a very long time... I think of you every single minute, every single hour, every single day, 24-7 and I miss you. I love you with all my heart.

Moving forward without you isn't easy...Your name comes up with friends in conversation almost daily, I look at your photos on my walls or on my laptop, I watch the funny, silly TikTok videos we made and other videos of you, just to hear your voice...

I feel so empty without you most days... some days just getting out of bed is a challenge and all I want to do is talk to your photos like you are still here, watch your videos, and not move... other days, I know you would tell me to stop feeling sorry for you and for myself and to get out and start the moving forward process...

I know you likely know I have our dream job now and are looking down on me with pride and a huge smile on your face, wishing you could come back and celebrate me getting it... I know you watch over me when I am alone and crying because I miss you so much, and when I am out job searching, or spending time with friends and you were with me on the day of the interview for my new job... you show yourself in little ways...

I still love watching sunsets like we used to, wishing we were together sitting in the rig and watching together as the sun sets or rises... But right at this moment, I know you are looking down with pride as I am about to start our/my dream job next month at TD Coliseum here in Hamilton, I know you are smiling with pride, seeing me doing what I love with taking photos and making videos for fun from time to time.. I know when I am stressed you are here with me, guiding me and proud that I am working hard to move forward...I miss you so much and I love you!!

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