When I get rid of these wrinkles, I’ll love myself. When I lose those pounds. When I have a flat - Video

When I get rid of these wrinkles, I’ll love myself.

When I lose those pounds.
When I have a flatter stomach.
When the cellulite is gone.
When my arms are more toned,
thighs smaller,
breasts bigger.
When I’ve covered up the gray hairs.

Self love is just a small fix away. Right?

For most of my life, that critical voice in the back of my head has been loud. Always telling me I’m not good enough. I’m close though - if I just change a little bit. Go on that diet. Work out a little more. Get better at putting on makeup, do my hair just right. Relief just around the corner. If I just improve this one thing, then self-love will come. Everything will fall into place and I’ll feel free. I’ll be at ease. At home. Finally, I’ll be lovable. Worthy. Deserving.

It’s just a small fix away.

The thing about that fix though… It’s imaginary. Truth is, when I look back at my life I can’t ever recall a time where some version of that voice wasn’t there. And even if I did successfully change something at some point in my life, that voice would jump straight to the next thing to fix.

Can you remember the times in your life when you’ve felt a true sense of freedom in your body? I can.

Swimming naked in the lake.
Giving birth.
Dancing to live music.
Running through desert trails.
Lying in Savasana at the end of yoga practice.
Watching the sunrise with my baby in my arms.

None of these moments have a single thing to do with what my body looks like or whether or not is fits in with society’s current standard of beauty. What if instead of focusing on the incessant, futile path of trying to stop life from showing on our faces and bodies, we started looking for what makes us come alive? What if every time we heard that critical voice in the back of our heads getting loud we went inward, instead of outside of ourselves?

What is self-love isn’t a small fix away, but available here, now?

On this weeks episode of @fromtheheartpodcast I talk about my recent struggles with self-acceptance and the moment that first took me away, and then brought me back to myself. Tune in if this resonates???? available where all podcasts are found. x

#selflove #bodyimage #selfcare